i’m so fucking disgusted with you. i cannot put to words how much anger i have in me now. the more i think about it, the more i felt everything was bullshit. any last bits of good memories that i have of you, i’m sorry but they are all fucking tainted. i just felt so cheated, so naive, so stupid. the past kept replaying in my head, but now all i can see and feel are just detest, disgust, pain, hurt. and most of all, disappointment. i was wrong about you, and everything was nothing but a fucking mistake.  

And i wonder, what now? People who said they will stay didnt stay, people who said they will be there weren’t there. I’m tired, where are you?